Notes on a sunny day
A dream of the undead, feasted on by a maternal influence. An anima, both monstrously caring and destroying. A blade that couldn’t cut.
The end of the world, Tomorrow, Here Today!
I was walking beside the graveyard back home. The sky, the air was grey. Heavy. Mist and wood smoke hung on to the ground. Bled out from the graves and the metal bars. A woman walked in front of me. A girl. I couldn’t see her face. I could hear a scream, a woman somewhere in the houses. It seeped into the sound of children leaving school and whipped around me like the wind from the harsh blocking of estates. A wind that wasn’t there. The static, lifeless air of a waking dream.
Thick and distant. Perfect timing. The sun’s just gone. Bad luck, ha, ha, ha. Thick and distant. But coming. Silent, screaming terror just on the edges of where ever I look, howling at the blossom hanging onto the near-bare branches.
None of this does it justice.
Variations of better thoughts, put into poor order.
Such as: He
Such as: He was
Such as: He was,
he was sat there with a face like old cigarettes and a fag butt brain soaked in piss and old bleach what vain attempts both feeble in effort and effect to clean up a gutter knowing in a well and good mind that it will be the same again in minutes count them backwards
free too won
SHHHHHH. Dead you feel that didn’t you? Cock an ear. Like silent electricity. A shock that doesn’t hurt. Your head moving too fast for the thing inside, see? Remember when this was new, before it went all the way round and became new again? Not such a shock this time
Met you, what- halfway through your life? At a guess. Nothing born but bitter, stunted growths. I’d like to call them children, for some flowery forced nostalgia, but I don’t think it works like that. Crab apples. Why not. Used as baseballs, beaten with a bat we swore was an old police baton stained with a red mark we all swore was blood. Malus sylvestris, right in the back of your head.
Gone. Gone with the stained glass widow, punched through, leaving a hole, a huge scar and a piece of plastic foam board for years and years. Gone with the dregs of bottles of cheap booze, worries of permanent virginity and fleeting musical and clothing trends.
Gone with the littered bones. Goat and chicken and abandoned kitten. Gone like the sense of dignity or care for other people’s opinions once held by the shirtless, wolf-haired pigeon-men of Ruskin Park.
Now, not even a hole to look into.
Funny how we are so prone as to add romance and humour when talking about objects, things and people which no longer exist. Millions to be made, millions to be spent on such a thing.
But pick an object. Just one.
An old pair of boots
A faded gig ticket, bleached by sunlight
An old biscuit box, merchandise for a cartoon no longer broadcast
Scars on knuckles that fit patterns on brickwork on wall that doesn't exist.
Old paperwork for things that you don’t even own any more. Paralysed by a fear that if you throw it away, out goes every memory attached to it. Or worse yet, hanging on to a bittersweet thought of something that at the time seemed to be so horrific. Silent electricity, back again. Shock of the old, every few seconds like the distant memory of familiar things.
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He can feel the chill of death creeping through His tissues. With one last surge of strength, He once again presses His torn feet against the nail, straightens His legs, takes a deeper breath, and utters His seventh and last cry, “Father, into thy hands I commit my spirit.”